THE FIGHT!

8/20/13 - DAY 1.
I cried a lot yesterday.  Got that over with.  Now I need to pull myself together, focus and beat this thing.  There are so many women out there who have fought and won the battle with disease.  They are an inspiration to me and I too will fight and win.  I am determined.  My biggest challenge right now will be to eliminate stress which is not the easiest thing for me to do.  I need to boost my immune system and stay healthy.  This means eating extremely well, continuing to exercise and get good rest.

I am tough.  I have been through some very hard times and situations in my past and have come through with flying colors.  I come from a strong family and I draw strength from them.  My husband is fiercely by my side and will do anything that it takes to offer me continual support and fight right along side me.  But what gives me the most strength and determination is that there is no question that I cannot be here for my kids.  As a mother, the three of them are as much a part of me as I am myself and this battle is more for them than me.  I also must fight hard for my mother - she has lost a child already in her life.  There will not be a second while she is still alive if I can help it.

I will attempt to summon all of the strength that I can, reduce as much stress that I can, stay healthy and tackle this thing head on.

I decided to write this blog to track my progress and to keep friends and family informed.  I'm hoping it will also give me something to focus positive energy on in order to reflect and stay strong.

I won't lie.  I'm scared as hell.  Mad as hell.  Determined as hell.  And about to be as mean as hell to this disease.